Friday, October 31, 2014

Growing Psychic Awareness Meditation

I find it funny that my Witches Almanac book gives a psychic awareness spell for Samhain as well. Seems we're on the

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Source: Photobucket user USS-Special

I looked for a bad joke eel, guess I'll have to do with a bad joke Cast-eel (Seriously, I will fucking stop. I was also told by my friends that that's not how you pronounce his name anyway so this sucks on both levels).

I came up with this meditation a couple of months ago. I've been trying to get back into meditating but I keep having too many intrusive thoughts and it always kind of shook me out of that relaxed state. Especially if story ideas and plot lines come into play. Until I heard this quote by someone whose name escapes me. It said something about your thoughts being like clouds and you are the mountain. You let your thoughts flow by and are unmoved by them. I have seriously just spent the past half hour googling it online and can't find where I found it before, but this article I found kind of explains what I'm trying to ineloquently say.

This gave me the idea of, I guess it's a sort of guided meditation. I didn't record my voice or anything like that, but it's a meditation with a specific purpose so it's kind of the same? I don't know. Anywhoozles it's to help increase your psychic awareness.

Start by envisioning yourself standing by a watering can on a cliff jutting out the side of a mountain. Or on a mountain cliff, you know I really don't care what your fucking mind's eye's mountain looks like, this is just how mine worked. Obviously it'll be different for everyone. Either way, this space should be a space of peace and where you feel most comfortable.  Love hot weather and sun? See yourself in full sun with bright skies. Like muggy weather? On a mountain in the fog.

Spend a little time getting to know your surroundings and take in how you think everything should look. Look to the sides and see your landscape. Look up, are there birds or is the sky clear? I have no clue, it's all you dude.

The cliff, or wherever you're standing on the mountain, should be grassy though.   A vibrant, bright green grass. The ground is soft and nourishing with a life giving energy to it.

See yourself cupping your hands in front of you. In them you are holding an amethyst crystal. Dig a hole in the dirt in front of you and bury the crystal like a seed. Water the spot with your watering can you were standing beside.

After you do this, sit in front of the spot with your legs crossed and eyes closed. Or envision yourself laying down if this is more comfortable for you.

While sitting, you want to think about the amethyst crystal growing in power from your care and the help of the elements. If it helps, imagine your third eye opening as well while you meditate. You want to meditate on the thought of your mind becoming more open to perceiving the world around you as your eyes cannot.

It probably should be worth mentioning that this is supposed to be a series of meditations. Each time you meditate you should begin by seeing yourself standing on your cliff by your watering can. Begin each session by watering your crystal. With each session you should imagine your amethyst growing stronger and stronger and a flower growing out of the spot the stronger it grows. As your flower grows, so to should your psychic awareness. Your flower can look however you want it to. It can be made out of the crystal you buried, or any purple flower you like. If you want to focus your psychic ability on a certain aspect, the color of the flower should probably represent that (as in if you want this to be all about perceiving things in the context of relationships or something, make the flower red).

You can end the series when the flower is in full bloom, or continue it and just use that spot as your own rest spot to go to in your mind's eye when you're feeling stressed.

I hope this works for whoever does it. I also hope everyone has a Happy Samhain, or Halloween, or just a good day and night all around.

Thursday, October 30, 2014

Tigercon 2014: The Sellers

The Wayward Rabbit were our booth neighbors. Unfortunately unlike the last Otakon I attended I didn't really spend much time getting to know them or talking to them. I was kind of an aloof booth neighbor this time around. I did, however, manage to get a glimpse of what they were selling and snagged their card.

The Wayward Rabbit sells beautiful and mythical looking leather masks, cute clay figurines, and hair pieces. All of them so far are extremely affordable. One of the more intricate and bigger masks on the website only costs 50 dollars and the leather hair clips go as low as 10.

You can follow them on Facebook.
Technoangel Studios booth caught my eye with their funny buttons and cute 'Like a purr' cat shirt. I'm kind of sad that I didn't buy one of their rating buttons when I had the chance because I can't find it on their store, but they do take commissions for artwork and buttons so there's that.

You can follow them on Twitter, Facebook, or Tumblr.
I found Nakita of Maka's Needlepoint working on a replica of a Doctor Who scarf as I was walking around.  Their shop offers a variety of scarves and cute needlepoints, any item of hers can be custom made. Nakita Albarn also happens to be a professional cosplay model as well (and a very good one in my opinion).

You can follow her store on Facebook, or her cosplay page. Her Model Mayhem number is 2339992.
Wayward Studios has interesting comics, the one that caught my attention at their booth was Jikoshia. I like the artwork, which is a more westernized anime style, and the synopsis:

" Nifty was just a normal girl trying to breeze her way through high school.
That is, until she took a dare.

After opening a seemingly harmless door, Nifty discovered the world of Jikoshia. Now she must take on the role of a hero of legend in order to stop Lord Vei's plans for war.

But things are not always what they seem..."

You can find all of their comics on their store along with cards, bookmarks, and buttons for sale. You can also follow them on Tumblr, Facebook, or Twitter.
What first drew me to Alyssa M. Torres was the sketchy look of the art she had up. I love sketch art. Based out of DC, she also makes animations, comics, and mobile games for the National Center for Missing and Exploited Children.

Check out her shop and follow her on Tumblr.
Absolut Qualitee has some really adorable bead sprites and cross stitches. I especially liked their Groot beading. They do not have a store yet and mainly sell at Tigercon, but the seller told me they have done commissions through e mail before, so follow them on Facebook.
Her name is Chantal Moosher and she draws weird things for you to look at! The owner of the Lil' UFO tumblr certainly does have some weird and creative pieces like her Breakfast Robot and Centaur Fluttershy. I adore her drawings and the colors she uses really make them pop.

You can find her store here.
Besides having a tongue twister of a name, Omnomopoeia makes handmade video game jewelry, plushies, and more; including this cool green Super Kick Shell.

Follow them on Facebook and Twitter, or follow their Blog.
The booth Gap 'n' Pigtail was comprised of Dasia Leonard and Aiby. I really liked the artwork they had to display at their booth. Probably stared a bit longer at it than is socially acceptable.

You can follow Aiby on her Facebook page here and she can also be found on Tumblr, Dasia's Facebook is here.

Dasia is available for community events, parties, and special occasions as a caricature artist as well as designing t-shirts and logos as a graphic designer. Aiby is a digital and graphic designs major who is currently taking small commissions. Both of them were very nice, so don't be shy about contacting them.
Aurora Clothiers by Allen Gale has the plushiest pillows I've ever felt and the Etsy store is filled with all these gorgeous dresses and items for cosplayers. Take a look at the listing for Belle's ballgown. Fucking amazing.

You can follow them on Facebook.
Aroc Gaming makes and sells dice bags, tabletop figures, and painted D20's. Their bags have fun and cute patterns like french fries, bacon, and peacocks. I wanted to buy one of her TMNT themed D20's but everyone always buys the damn Raphaels before I can get to them!

Follow Aroc on Twitter or Facebook.
Kinder Bat are creators of cozy and fluffy tails, ears and hats, most of which are inspired by some animal or creature.

Follow them on Facebook.
Last, but not least (and bless you for getting down this far), is Hiddentalent Illustrations. I was actually able to buy something from her, and I absolutely love it. She specializes in creating beautiful and cute works of art out of paper collages. When I first saw them I thought she had painted them until I got a better look. She sells prints both large and small.

You can find her on Facebook which is where her store front is located as well, or on Tumblr.

My print that I bought

So ends my post of the Tigercon artists and sellers. I recommend supporting your indie artists and following all of them in some format.

Wednesday, October 29, 2014

Tigercon 2014: The Cosplayers

Last Saturday was Tigercon, a free anime convention at Towson University. Since Jessie and JessJess Creations was there to hawk their wares, so was I to help said hawking. I brought my undependable iPhone with me just in case I saw cosplayers. I'm not sure why I thought there would be less cosplayers than there was. Probably because Tigercon is only one day, but I learned you should never underestimate cosplayers and their love for their art even if it's for a day.

Sollux Captor - Homestuck

I've only read a little bit of the comic, but I love Homestuck cosplay. Especially of the trolls. They're so cute and interesting looking.

Anna - Frozen

Grell and Sebastian - Black Butler

Grell's makeup was very good, so good it kept making me want to apologize for holding them up from their con because they looked sad/worried. I also love the shark teeth, I think they're cute. I wonder if they bought or made them?

Fluttershy - My Little Pony

I honestly think this was, hands down, one of the cutest cosplays I saw that day, and the cosplayer themselves was so nice and sweet.

Belle and Beast - Beauty and the Beast

Beast's detachable head reminded me of an old Ken doll I used to have.

River Song and Eleventh Doctor - Doctor Who

Jeff, Sam, and Louise - Jeff the Killer, Trick 'r Treat, Bob's Burgers

How fitting is it that Louise is walking around with Jeff the Killer and Sam? I don't know about you, but their characters being friends is now my official headcanon. 


This person isn't cosplaying a character, but is instead dressed up in the Japanese fashion of Shironuri. At first I thought they were mixing Cult Party Kei with Gothic Lolita. I'm sad that I didn't ask her for a close up picture of her face. This picture does well to showcase her clothing, but does a disservice to the beautiful eye makeup she had on. Lots of pretty dots and lines fading away to the outer edges of her face. 

Levi - Attack on Titan

Their contouring work is so good. I wonder if any of these cosplayers and con attendants ever do makeup or any tutorials on YouTube, or anywhere else. Tell me your secrets! 

Lilith - Borderlands II

This cosplayer told me she had to wake up an hour earlier to draw her blue tattoos. I'm just surprised she only had to wake an hour earlier to do this. 

An Autumn Faun

Not an anime character, just something of her own amazing creation. I couldn't stop myself from looking every time she walked by, especially at her hair. It was so pretty and the glitter on the leaves in her hair shined just right as well. Sometimes I think it's hard to get glitter to work correctly, but everything about this costume was on pointe to me. 

Jack Frost - Rise of the Guardians

Finally we have Jack Frost who had the patience of a goddamn saint. Poor cosplayer had to sit through a dying iPhone and three tries with my friends phone before the picture would take.

I want to thank all the con-goers who let me take their picture and the people who stopped to buy from us, take our cards, or even just talk to us. Awesome people like you are what makes these Artist Alley's worth going to. That and money.

Here is the link to my Imgur album where I have even more pictures of cosplayers:

Tomorrow I will be putting up links and showcasing some of the Artist Alley's sellers.

By the by, while I was looking up a tutorial for Grell's teeth, I also happened to run across this video someone made with a way to get the look without making or buying a mold. Very neat and interesting, not to mention you can use it for other teeth makeup needs like rotting teeth for a zombie, or missing teeth for...whatever.

Sunday, October 26, 2014

I Was Almost A Creepypasta

About three weeks ago I went to my friend's house for one of our little get togethers where I made quick use of the everclear before realizing my wallet was left in my car. As much as I'd like to be completely trusting of my friend's neighbors, I don't know any of them and my car (having a broken power window, yet again) is easily break in-able at this point. What happened next reminded me why it's always the drunk people in horror movies who are among the first to die. Spoiler alert: it's because we're dumb as hell.

After locating my wallet and locking up my car, I noticed that my friends complex is surrounded by woods and the road that leads past it goes through a little area with trees on both sides. A primarily dark, possibly unsafe for drunk people, short area with only one street lamp. For some reason I went crazy pagan that night and felt that the woods were 'calling me' and I had to heed the you do. Perfectly reasonable response, really. Walking down the road, using my cellphone as my flashlight, I saw the silhouette of something that resembled a very large dog run out across the road and back into the woods. Now were I more sober this would have been the point where I did a heel turn and walked back to the apartment. Instead I stood frozen for a couple of seconds then exclaimed, "Puppy?!", and continued on intent on finding it.

At some point during my weaving I heard an actual dog barking further down. This excited Drunk Addy! Not only was there the prospect of one puppy, there was another, legitimate puppy somewhere up ahead. I also decided at some point, for reasons only known to me at the time, that there would most definitely be a bar in the neighborhood up ahead and I was going to go get a drink there because I was hella pretty and the general public should see me. 

I'm pretty sure I scared some of the few drivers that drove by me as well. See, I was drunk enough to make some stupid decisions that would negatively impact my livelihood, but smart enough to at least try and enact some self preservation skills. Drunks are weird that way I find. One of those smart decisions was to stand at the edge of the road when I saw or heard a car. I was slightly paranoid of people I couldn't watch since it was just me all alone. I was weaving everywhere as well and I didn't feel like re enacting Frogger. So there I am dressed all in black like a good little goth, lace shrug slipping off my shoulders, green shadowed eyes wide open in what probably looked like fear while I clutched my worldly possessions to my chest and just stood and stared until the driver passed me by and I could continue.

After I cleared the woods I saw I was in a normal, residential neighborhood with a huge lack in imaginary bars. I remember this annoying me to the point where I forgot about any dog I had heard before. Looking around at my surroundings, I glimpsed a pair of eyes watching me from the edge of the road just outside the light from my cellphone. When I stepped closer they disappeared. It was then I decided perhaps we should just get the fuck out of dodge. I turned to go back and that's when I saw the second silhouette run across the road just beyond the streetlight. Only this time it went the other way into the woods. 

"Puppy!" And thus the search was back on. 

Here's where the actually creepy part of my long assed ramble comes in. I don't know if it was because this silhouette was larger than the rest, or maybe I was closer to it, but I got a better look at this one and I realized soon after that perhaps I didn't want to get very close to it. When I say these things looked like large dogs from a distance, I mean large. Despite this all around largeness to them they looked kind of thin. This latest silhouette in particular had an odd gauntness to it. It also looked like it shouldn't be running on all fours. I really hope you understand what I mean by that because I have no other way to explain it. It just looked wrong, it was way too hunched over. Piecing together all this new information I realized the whatever-it-was really reminded me of the way that other whatever-it-was moved from my experience on 'Rake Road'. What had started off as a fun drunk adventure was very quickly turning into my own personal horror movie. Needless to say, as soon as I entertained that thought I hightailed it back to the apartment complex I came from as fast as I could to the two friends that were searching the parking lot for me. I managed to talk them into going back down the road a bit to search for my elusive forest dogs, but they were much more sober than I was and neither of them wanted to meet something feral. 

I never got to see what those things looked like up close so I could never confirm if they were just big, weird dogs or something else. A friend of mine later told me that the area I was in was known for having wild coyotes running around. I don't know how big a coyote is supposed to be so I can't really say anything about that. I do remember that's not the first time I've heard about coyote sightings though.

I have since been forbidden from drinking Everclear.

Bonus story: As if this wasn't long enough. To be quite honest I have a habit of cutting out a lot of my rambling and keeping things short so deal with it. This is one of those parts I cut out because I didn't know how to fit it in without it looking odd, or looking like I was going off on too many side notes/tangents. Sometimes I think I'm better at actually speaking these types of stories instead of writing them.

On my way back to the apartment I got a call from one of my friends who was still inside. The conversation was as follows.

Val: Hi sweetie.
Me: Val!! How are you?
V: I'm good. By the way, where are you?
M: I'm out in the woods.
V: We have woods?
M: Yes, down the road I took to get to another neighborhood. Did you know there aren't any bars? It's bullshit!
V: Hon' this is a complex, they're not going to have any bars. 
So some of us are looking for you.
M: Oh yeah, I'm on my way back. I keep seeing these weird...forest-dog creatures running in and out of the woods. At first I wanted to see what they looked like because I thought they were just dogs, but they run really wrong, Val. They're  pretty big too and I'm getting creeped out so I'm just going to come back now.
V: Oh ok, that's good, well I'll see you when you get here.

Some of you reading may have noticed the distinct lack of concern my friend had. This did not go unnoticed by me either. I remember hanging up and looking at my phone for a bit, mulling over the conversation I just had before going, "...That's kind of fucked up."

Really intoxicated chick with a predisposition to being more curious than the cat that got killed for it? Large, possibly feral, dog looking creatures who "run weird" (that are living in a freaking forest no less)? Ehhhhhh...she's fiiiine. 

They actually do love me, I promise.

Tuesday, October 7, 2014

Why I'm Afraid Of Dying

When I was younger, I think around early high school years, I had a very realistic nightmare.

I woke up in hell, or a hellish landscape and what I perceived in the dream to be hell. It would not look out of place in some dystopian movie about the end of the world. I was sitting on a pile of rubble next to a steel beam. There were cracks in the ground all around me. Flames would lick up out of them every so often or a gust of hot air would send embers flying. Wherever I looked there was fire. My hair and clothing stuck to me with sweat. My vision was hazy from the heat, but one thing was very clear. There was a dog coming towards me. A Rottweiler to be precise. It walked over to me with a dooming calmness but its head was low to the ground. It was growling at me, frothing with rage.

I don't remember exactly who I started praying to, but I think I just about prayed to every God I knew of. I remember the dog started laughing at me and then spoke.

"You can escape this time, but when you die there will be no angels to guide you. Only me. And no God or Jesus will be able to save you."

After that I woke up.

Of all the crazy recurring dreams I've had, this was not one of them. For that I'm grateful, and until I had to think of something creepy to write about for October, I largely forget this dream.

But there are times when I'm trying to get to sleep and I'm all alone, or when a relative has passed and I'm staring at their casket while the preacher tries to soothe us with a sermon, or sometimes when I wonder about what awaits us after death that sometimes my mind will wander back to the Rottweiler. Back to my dream of what I'm sure was hell. It is then that I struggle harder to sleep. It is then that I listen more closely to the words of a God I don't worship, and it is then that I sometimes wish there is nothing after death.